Benevolence

Just my thoughts

Does any one feel as blessed as I do ?

Blessed is the soul that is grateful

for what it has

blessed is the soul that recognizes it

blessed is the soul that is thankful

may I always be thankful to the ‘one’

that gave me all ….

I truly have a lot to be thankful for , When I was a little girl I was always the wrong shoe size as I like to call m self , I never fitted in anywhere , no matter what I was never accepted . I felt like I was a curse , you would put me with Iraqis girls I would get bullied , you would put me with the Iranians girls I would be made fun off and if you put me with indians I still could not make any friends . English school was a disaster as it took me time to learn ‘english’ . I thought it was because I was ugly that was why no one wanted to be my friend .

 I believed that for so long , my sisters made friends why not me ? what is wrong with me ? . When I grew older I realized it is not my looks because I actually got attention from men ,ok so if it is not my looks why is it no one wants to be my friend . I think it is because I was very bubbly , I started making friend around  my teens . Gave up trying to fit in to the ‘in’ group and started just accepting that this is how it is going to be .

Now as an adult I am so grateful that I was never the popular girl , I’m grateful that I was never in the ‘in’ group . Maybe just maybe I would not be who I am if everything worked out with ‘iraqi’ girls as they say .

I have wonderful friends now , extremely loyal and my phone never stops ringing !:) :) I do feel special in a way , but I changed and my experiences made me a better person . I can never look down at anyone nor ill treat them because I know how that feels . My culture in an indirect way does teachs arrogance , my experiences wiped it away . My friends come from all over the world ,now I even eat with my hands ( provided I washed them ) .

So indeed I am blessed , to have such wonderful people in my life .

6 Comments »

  Maryam wrote @

Everyone is blessed in some way or the other and its onto us to realise that as soon as we can. Counting our blessings and Thanking Allah for such blessings always make us a Humble and respectable person. That is exactly what makes us happy and smile even in times of distress.

I am happy reading your post Amal, Good to see you realise how blessed you are sweety.
Err ………. Am i included in your friends list ???
Lol … :-D

  operationmeaning wrote @

What a wonderful post. I know exactly how you feel. I always felt like a social outcast growing up. I could never really fit it. It wasn’t until college that I had my first “Real friends”. And I think that those times were sent by God to show me how the underdog feels. I am grateful, like you, that I was never really part of the “in” crowd. I know that I am really blessed now.

  sara wrote @

awwwwwwwww sweetie.. that surely is a unique feeling that not everyone gets.. I’m glad to see you this content :) I really am :)

  benevolence85 wrote @

Maryam- you are one of my cutest friends online man ! I JUST READ YOUR EMAIL , I was going to email you and see how you are merri jaan , inshallah will do later when my girl is in bed , cant type an email while shes around

operationmeaning – yeah outcast , I thought I was a freak , but now realize it is the freaks that get somewhere in life :D :D
have you noticed how the ‘in’ people are actually the most boring yawning people in the world ?

sara- awww to you to , I know how much your grateful to your familly since everyone in your familly is joined at the hip :D

  blessed1 wrote @

What a lovely post! I fully agree that we’re all blessed with God’s grace…we just have to open our heart and eyes to what He gives us each new day.

  stinger wrote @

Its a great feeling to know that you’ll be doing the right thing if you just let yourself go free of “what it should be like”.


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