As we get older
we keep memories alive
with pain that we lit in our eyes
pain the heart Carry’s with it
wherever it goes
wishes it can let go
pain makes one wonder
why does one go on ?
where did that peace I once felt go ?
will the pain ever let me go ?
letting go of painful memories
only then will the pain let me go
feeling scarred for life
imagining a permanent indent in my heart
asking the lord for help !
allow me to let go
the pain that I
just can not let go .
That was a poem I wrote a few days ago , as I can not seem to get to sleep because I keep thinking , It is amazing I actually don’t feel that pain that I felt then . Painful emotions can really drag you down , and rip away any hope you once had in your heart . All that hard work , all that effort I had put in to my self development so that I would not feel that way again , yet the emotions keep coming back . That is life striving constantly with yourself . It is all about how you view things and how you feel . I realize now it will be a constant battle to stay alive inside .
You simply have to face them. “Why am I feeling like this?” A answer would be the key to let go of it 
Yup Amal, It is surely a battle.
Pain, I wonder how much does this word really deliver its message. The actual feeling is much much deeper and long-lasting compared the mere 4 letter word -Pain.
Pain when resides in our heart, we dont recognize ourselves anymore. Have heard many say that Time heals every wound, Time is the cure for every injury and pain. I agree but not totally. Pain can eat you within and we cannot realise it. Time does give us relief, but just Relief. That memory, that phase, that pain doesnt leave us, It fades a bit, but some wounds are really really deep and Time doesnt heal them atall.
I am sorry Amal, as i instead of consoling you, am talking the same shit. But Pain is such a thing Amal …….
Anyway Amal, Dont worry. Hang on to Allah, as that is the only thing which would benefit us all always.